A HUGE welcome to all my new followers.
(Thanks for pimping me out, Holly!)
I feel like I've read some posts before along the extent of,
"Hey, welcome new followers and sorry you joined the action right in time for me to be in a funk"
But that's totally me right now!
WOMP WOmp womp...
I am in a funk.
I don't know exactly why or how or what about.
But it's there!
I do know one thing weighing heavy on me...
I'm really struggling with how I manage my time.
I'm feeling guilty about where I place my time.
I have a 17-month-old son who I stay home with 5 days out of the week
I have a job (30 hours/week) that I do from home, except for the 2 days I go into the office.
I can't seem to find the balance between my son, working, my DVR, blogs and Instagram.
(poor hubs just fits in wherever he can!)
Yes, I do understand how absolutely silly this sounds.
But it's an honest struggle for me right now.
I haven't read any blogs since Monday.
My DVR has only 30% available to record.
(y'all, there are 19 episodes of Ellen on there yet to watch! And I love that woman - no, not like that, Portia - so if I'm neglecting her...you know that's bad!!)I've basically given up on Facebook.
The only time I get on there is if I post a pic or have a notification for something.
I have to admit that I actually don't miss scrolling through everyone's statuses.
I kind of backed off cos I realized how angry I was getting after reading stupid, mindless, annoying shit!
I don't, however feel guilty about my workout/running times.
I know those moments are me bettering myself, so I know they are necessary.
I know I want Royce to see my example of making time to be active, exercise and be healthy.
I have a guilty conscious by nature.
So I'm struggling with anything else that consumes my time that may take away from my son.
I turn on Mickey Mouse Clubhouse so I can read a few blogs, get some work done, scour IG...
And while he loves those crazy animated animals, I get so wrapped up in what I'm doing that I don't even take the time to watch him enjoy their antics.
So it's bedtime and as I put him in his crib, I feel as though I haven't seen him all day.
This makes it sound like I am totally neglecting my son.
And I assure you, I'm not!
I do take time out and get down and play with him.
Take care of him.
Read to him.
Chase him. (his new fave thing!)
I know that he feels loved and cherished.
I know that I'm spending ample amounts of time with him.
I just don't ever want to think back on this time and think, "Gah, I was so wrapped up in insert here that I feel like I just missed it all."
I have a "Mommy Board" on Pinterest chalk full of stuff that I want to do with Royce.
I just looked at this board and forgot all the cool things I had on there.
I don't want to miss out on different opportunities, adventures, memories with him cos I was too busy with "stuff".
Just my raw, honest struggle with balance.
I know I'm not alone in this.
So thanks for listening, friends!
I promise to snap the eff out of it soon...ish!
For now, I'll just leave you with this...